It dawned on me that I hadn’t had the opportunity to write in a while, and that when I do write on this blog, it tends to be during a time when I’m feeling down. So instead, I decided to take a few moments today to write when I’m feeling good about things.
I had a doctor appointment go very well this morning! My joints seem to like the Remicade, and it looks like I’ll even be coming off one of my other medications! If you have taken corticosteroids for any length of time, you’ll understand why I am so incredibly happy to be leaving them after 4 years! On top of that, it seems that I am sensitive to gluten and processed sugar, so instead of being sad about missing gluten and sugar, I am instead taking on the challenge of learning to cook new grains and desserts!
My final semester of undergrad looks like it will be smooth sailing, and while I’m a bit nervous about turning out an amazing writing sample and personal statements for my grad school applications, I know that no matter what happens I’ll find a way to make it work. That being said, if I do manage to get into a program in another state it will be extremely difficult to decide whether or not to move, but I know that no matter where I end up I will find a way to be happy (or move back home!)
I wasn’t feeling quite this peppy when I woke up this morning. Actually, I was pretty grumpy. I got some news yesterday that took me by surprise, though it probably shouldn’t have. Sometimes it hurts to move on and grow from things that once held deep roots in your heart. When I was driving home from class today, though, the sun was shining. I rolled down the windows, opened the sun roof, and just smiled. Today might be hard. Life might hurt. But the world just keeps spinning. And at the end of the day, it’s harder to be sad when you smile.