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  My Alimentary Adventure

My Alimentary Adventure: Preparation (Week 2 Wrap-up)

While the first seven days of this journey were all about getting into the swing of things, week two was about preparation. Sounds a little backwards? Let me explain… I have decided to jump headfirst into caring for my body. That means: new dietary discoveries, all kinds of testing, getting systematic with my exercise and eating habits, and above all else finding the best ways for me to  ...

  Self-care

Acknowledging the “Spoon Theory” & Accepting Your Limitations

In case you haven’t heard of the “Spoon Theory” before (and even if you have), please take the time to read Christine Miserandino’s account of how she began to discuss living with chronic illness in terms of having utensils. In essence, the Spoon Theory is a metaphor that sets up health like a bank account (to use another analogy). For most people, sleep and food act  ...

  My Alimentary Adventure

My Alimentary Adventure: Days 3 & 4

Sleep has been both elusive and consuming. I’ve had insomnia ever since I can remember. My therapist says that being asleep is the most vulnerable a person can be physically, and that the racing of my brain and rise in anxiety when I go to bed probably stems from feelings of not being safe when I was a child. When I was two, I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. My earliest memory  ...

  Sudden Sight Originals, Uncategorized

My Sudden Sight

Last night, I watched the movie Cake, which stars Jennifer Aniston as an ill-tempered woman dealing with chronic pain. Seeing her move slowly and robotically, small gasps with every effort, brought back some difficult memories. But also a clear sense of strength and of hope. As anyone with chronic pain can tell you, it becomes so much more than a physical nuisance. As hours turn into days,  ...

  Sudden Sight Originals, Uncategorized

Trapped

Today is a bad day. For those who know what I mean, let’s just say I woke up without any spoons left. My head ached, my eyes were blurred and pained by the small light streaming through my window. It was a feat simply to look at the extraordinarily large numbers on the face of my cell phone, telling me I slept hours later than intended. It almost seemed worthless to get out of bed at  ...

  Sudden Sight Originals, Uncategorized

Pressing the Reset Button

Now and again, there comes a time when we just need to take a breather and hit the reset button on life.¬†Frustrations mount, stresses build, and complications twist everything into a knotted, tangled mess. You can’t always walk away from your stressors – usually you can’t – but you can take a step back. You can take a moment to yourself and reenter the situation with a  ...

  Sudden Sight Originals, Uncategorized

Fighting Fear, Fighting Frustration, Finding the Silver Lining

I finally made it home today, one week after going to the doctor to check on a fever. Funny how a checkup can turn into a brief hospital stay. Not so funny how a few nights in the hospital can bring back so many memories and ignite so much fear and frustration. Last Sunday, I woke up at 6am with a fever of 102. I texted my mom, and at her behest took some acetaminophen. Luckily, this kept the  ...